i will be.

love.

one word that we all often ponder about. we chase it, we yearn for it, we give and we wish for it to be returned. we get our hearts broken but we still let ourselves for all in the name of love. you cant choose who fall in love with, it comes when you least expect it. sometimes you wonder, is this love? how do you know when you are in love? what if you never realise that you actually love that person? i was once in love, and i remember it well because it made me happy. if it was that simple, to define love, den arent we all in love? because it makes me happy to see you, to see you happy.

and we just throw the word around, carelessly. does that mean that it loses its value? but issnt it supposed to be something that you cant put a tag to? something that you cant describe? then how do you know? and what is the problem with not knowing? why do we, humans, have this need to always know? does that piece of information really matter? will you be any different if you knew more? will you love that person any less? how can you when you cant put a value to love? and when you love a person, arent you supposed to love them no matter what, despite whatever they did or will do, you love them. if you feel different and your heart takes a turn, do you still dare to claim that it is love you’re feeling? because aint it supposed to be unconditional? this love that we are all talking about now, this feeling that just comes, and we allow ourselves to fall in love, knowing the risk of getting burn bad.

oh i dont even know what i am talking about anymore, im just bored and i want to write, think and write more. and will you listen? because i promise to hold your hand and walk with you through the crowd.

so i went for a run today, and had me time. scrubbed, masked, moisturized and i feel good. =) grey-ed for a couple of hours before i decide to stop before the sofa ate me alive. im trying to gather ppl to to catch coco avant chanel tomr but the response aint good so far, wait till they find out that its in french… hehehehehe…

okay the girls are back. bye bye.

so we drink, be jolly and oh so silly!

“i hate you. i really hate you yesterday.”

i have to agree.
it was a really cold night. everything about it was just so cold.

and she, she was just about everything to him,
but now, you dont even see her anymore,
even when she’s standing there, right in front of you.

before, she was there even when she was not,
but now, when she looks at him, she knows that to him, she dont exists anymore.

i hate you i really do.

like i said it was a cold night, and i was angry. yeah so what. you could stop reading but i urge you to go on…

cos i am gonna stop being piss. i am not anymore. i was, perhaps a couple of days ago. but i am happy now. and so i bake. thick fudge chocolate cake. apple crumble with vanilla ice cream. oatmeal and almond cookies. *smiles*

and i look around me, i stand still among all the people and all the traffic and i wonder,
“would you care to stand still with me?”