do you get that?

something is amiss. i know but i cant put a finger to what is.

i cant find it. i keep looking. nothing is inside. its empty. i try to fill it up with anything i can get my hands on. but nothing happens. one by one things disappear. it doesnt fit right. i dont know what to do.

i focus. rewind my steps to where i first came from. and i look far ahead. i know where i want to go and where i want to be. i walk alone. but sometimes, i get tired. i want to stop. i think, “maybe i should have made that turn instead.” but i keep moving. because such is life.

i wish i can throw it all away. chuck it in a bin and click recycle.

it is a cycle.

and after a while, you realise, you’re right back at the start.

do you get me?

its a beautiful lie.

i really pity my cat. he lacks the attention.
now that ive started working, no one plays with him no more. =(

i know rug rug and i am really sorry. it breaks my heart each time i open the door to a dark and empty house and you are there starring right back at me. he will run to me and trail my footsteps to wherever i go. and now each time i pat him, he responds like he’s never been loved before. i know, a bit the drama but its really like that! how? how? how? =(

so my first working week is coming to an end and it has been pleasant thus far. i came in, thinking, “ha well.. first day.. chill la.” but noo.. i was asked to come up with concepts and ideas for stuff and its been like that so far. can be pretty challenging. like i told you guys, i wish i had an ocean full of ideas so when i need to, i can just fish for them from the tank. okay going fishing once doesnt make me a professional fisherman but you get my drift.

the office is all the way in loyang and i so happened to live on the other side of the island. but thank the gods for the very efficient public transport system we have here in singapore so it only takes me an hour to get to work. so for now, im a bus girl. bus it! bus it! bus it! hahaha.

so on the 3rd day of work, my manager came into the office to tell me that i will be the deejay for the day cos he left his mp3 at home. okay, i dunno bout you guys but i find the playlist something very personal. you can roughly figure what kinda person someone is by looking at his playlist, no? so yeah for a while then, i was quite conscious of what was playing. so boss, please dont judge my really mixed up taste in tunes. heh.

its only 10pm and im already tucked in bed. feels like a big working loser person. but well, going to work from mondays to fridays makes me want to treasure my free time more. so my first working/non-working weekend is already filled with plans! hahahaha.

mom’s out to bali for a month. dad’s joining her in 2 weeks. lonely.. oh so lonely.

it has been a busy week in the office cos we’re closing in on one of our titles. so this newb feels really guilty for walking out that door at 6pm for the past 4 days. not that i want to stay on but it felt really weird to leave on the dot cos of my past experience in the advertising world. i wonder how long this will last. -crosses fingers-

i really hope my proposal on green day falls through. -crosses toes-

okay im gonna indulge in some brainless ‘reality’ drama online now. BYE!!!!!

p/s: i really can yak alot more but i think this entry is pretty long already huh?

some boys.

are just not worth a penny for my thoughts.